I like to keep journals. It helps me to scrawl out whatever inane thoughts I’m having onto paper and just process things. I’ve tried not doing it, or finding some means of carrying it out electronically instead to reduce the risk of other people reading them. Much of what I write is just me getting things out of my system and not necessarily fair, and I don’t think there’s much that’s profoundly interesting in them to make up for it, and thus the idea of anyone else sitting down and reading them is quite horrifying.
Still, I find it the easiest way for me personally to write about the minutiae of my life, and it’s interesting for me, at least, to come back to them later and look back. Thus, I keep writing anyway.
I finished off the above-pictured notebook this week and figured I’d share some selected… highlights… from it.
Life events of interest:
- Sleepwalked through the final trimester of my pregnancy with Mr. K
- Worried over premature labour
- Worried over and tried to avoid an induction, failed
- Gave birth to Mr. K
- Mr. K’s first and second months
- Christmas 2015 and New Year 2016
- WINTER (there are so many variations of “omg it’s so cold” as opening sentences)
- Mr. K’s third month
Feeling quite accomplished currently in contrast to yesterday afternoon… I did go to Hard-Off and I did buy stuff I wanted. I got a mobile and a baby carrier!
– 15th October 2015, buying baby stuff at the secondhand store
… went to Babies R Us. R thought I called it “Baby’s Arse” because… katakana?!
– 1st November 2015 (re: 28th October, day before Mr. K was born). The joys of Japanese.
I felt this horrible tugging inside me, and a drop, as though something critical had pulled away… bad, it was bad…
– 1st November 2015 (it was a long entry). Regarding childbirth.
May be coming out of the maternity blues hole now, but the crying still isn’t just his.
– 28th November 2015
… it’s my fault for not “reading the atmosphere”. Between him (R) and his mother, the atmosphere can go **** itself.
– 16th January 2016. Clashes with my mother-in-law and general adjustment to life with a baby have caused some friction.